A New Kind of Me

Last week was Daddy's birthday and we got to spend sometime together. I wanted this day to be something that He would remember and i had been prepping myself for a while now. I wasn't the usual slutty me with my tits hanging out or wearing a mini skirt. I had gotten dressed up with lipstick and jewelry on. I even stopped to get Daddy some cup cakes.

I get to Daddy and the first thing i do is kiss His boots. (Kissing Daddy's feet are the first and last thing i do when we meet up a new ritual).

"Come here"

I came to Daddy and assumed the position.. Hands behind my back legs spread.

"Someone's excited. Why is my whore so wet?"

"I couldn't wait to see you!"

Daddy then dipped two fingers in me. A low moan escapes me. Pushing His fingers deep in me i start to move my hips toward Him. The more Daddy fingered the more i started to fuck them.

"Did you bring the toys and the lube?"

"Yes Daddy"

"Good girl. Over the desk"

I bent over the desk and spread my ass apart for Daddy's viewing pleasure. He rammed the inflatable plug in me. A sharp pain bit into me and i let out a loud moan. Daddy started pumping it and i start to open up like a flower in front of Him. Things started to get intense and i could feel myself starting to cum.

"May i cum Daddy Please?"

"No"

"Please Daddy PLEASE"

"I said NO"

I had to hold it. After a few more pumps and the plug slipping out of me Daddy let me cum. The way my body shakes as im being consumed by it. Daddy kept doing this process for about 30 minutes. After i was all warmed out, Daddy had me up on the table spread eagle while He began to fist me. This was the second time we have done this and i think im in love. Something about having every wall inside of me touched and stretched out gets me cumming instantaneously.

However the new me started when i got on my knees. After i took off Daddy's boots, He began to slap me. HARD. It was shocking because He's never hit me like this before. I like it.

"You ready to suck Daddy's dick?"

"Yes Daddy"

And this is where it began. With the help of the post from Fondles @ Cock Worshiping Subs the true cock sucker in me came out. I followed some of the rules on that list and not only did it please Daddy (oh so very much) but it got me to be more wrapped up in Him. i sucked on Him like i didn't want to let Him go. I became a greedy little bitch and thats something Daddy had never seen in me. i was able to go deeper than what i normally would. i was in such a headspace that Daddy slapped me and facefucked me for 10 minutes and i wanted more. Can you say Daddy was impressed. It didn't stop there. Daddys been trying to fist my ass and He was able to get three fingers in for starters. It may not sound like much but when your fighting it off with cries and screams of only one finger, three is a major accomplishment. Even getting fucked in the ass this time didnt hurt. i wanted more of Daddy but i couldn't have more.

 Daddy came on my face. I had to rub it in and wear it home. When i got home i was on cloud 1,000...all i remember from that night for once i was an obedient slave that let Daddy do whatever He wanted with out crying, screaming, or telling Daddy no it hurts. That night a new kind of me was born. I hope to see her again.

Im back.

Wow i have so many unpublished pieces since May....doesn't sound like a lot but I have lot of revising to do.. Where the hell have I been. I guess ill get to it now. Im feeling much better now and very much in love with Daddy and confident in Us.

Something new

So I saw Daddy today. It was amazing, yet painful. I took my punishment better than I expected. Daddy's bites hurt less this time or was it because He was easy on me.... I don't know. But I love watching Daddy undress. Very sexy. He takes his shirt off and sets it on the back of the chair. Then He took off His bulletproof vest...(mmm a man in uniform...(drools))

Next the punishment. Daddy shows me the bottle of pee that I will be drinking. My insides went cold and I just looked at Him. It was A LOT. A whole Pepsi bottle. I told Daddy ive never did that before. Daddy replied "Well you're going to get use to it." Then Daddy went back to biting my nipples HARD. This time I didn't feel it. I was to focus on what was in the bottle. He ordered me to my knees and put His cock in my mouth. That kind of took my mind off of what was next to come. I sucked eagerly. Daddy stopped me.

"You're going to drink half of that bottle now whore, DO you understand?"

"Yes Daddy"

He gave me that get to it look and I did. Then back to sucking. Then back to drinking and I was finished. Daddy fucked me in the ass again too. This time I didn't scream or cry. I told Daddy to go harder. More like " Fuck me harder please Daddy" and He did. It felt amazing. And now im here home. About to crash because my body is ready to go offline.

~Hispreciousslave~

Needy

i don't know what is it but i can't figure out why i become so needy. Sir says it's fine and that He loves when i act all needy, but i DO NOT like it. To me it shows absolutely no self control. But i can't help it. Sometimes it feels like i'm going to loose him which is something that will kill me if i do. He's the best.

When W/we saw each other last week i got my punishment, which came out of no where and some limits were broken because He forgot and also a headache before the face slapping. Nothing but disaster in the mix but Sir took care of me afterwards and apologized and held me until i stopped shaking. Then W/we parted ways to get back to our normal lives then it hit me like a brick. I WAS ON DYING NEED OF MY SIR. i tried calling and texting Him with no luck. i needed Him so bad that i cried for two days. i needed Him to pick up those pieces. Then i did something that i thought i'd stop doing......i self harmed... Something i know Sir would be truly mad about but i know it would be a red flag to Him and He'd take me more seriously. It got His attention alright but not the kind that i wanted....well kind of. However now i have two more punishments coming to me and so well needed alone time with Him. i'm SO looking forward to the alone time but i have to endure punishment time first. Which is something i'm good at because i don't cry or flinch which shocked Sir but this time he may bump it up a notch to make me scream and cry....

As i lay here and write this... i need him. its been almost four days since we had a real conversation. I just want Him near me...to hold me and inside of me. i love Him...something that i haven't expressed to Him. i don't think its the time to do it now.

Question: subs/slaves/ and everything in between how do you deal with neediness and things that i have described above?

Meeting my Dom

Today i have never been so happy. I got a chance to meet my Sir today!!!! Finally

I forgave him for the other day, but yesterday i rebelled because of it. So now i had two punishments to get. I got one of them today. However before i get into that let me tell you it from the beginning.

It all happened outside on a picnic table in a remote area. I got out of the car and so did He. He lit up a cigarette and we started talking. I kept starting at Him because it was finally happened. A few minutes later He threw His cigarette down and pulled me close to Him. We started kissing. I didn't care if He tasted like cigarettes, i just wanted him in my mouth. He sat down on the table and pulled me close to Him. It felt so good; Him holding me.He slipped His hand underneath my dress and started to finger me. Gosh i never really knew how deep i was until Him. He was right on top of my g-spot. I could feel myself about to squirt all over the place so i held it in.

I begged Him to cum and He let me. But it didn't comes easy the other times. We kissed a lot more while he fingered me. Then he pulled my breast out and bit my nipples. Both of them. Really really hard. I was on my tippy toes when He was doing it.

He told me to get on my knees and i thought i would be sucking His cock. Wrong. It was punishment time. He looked in my eyes and asked me if i were ready. I told Him Yes, Sir. And then BAM!!!! He smacks me across my face. I was not expecting that. I thought i was going to get a spanking and call it a day. I guess he forgot that earlier in the day i told him i had a headache.

The first time He sit me i couldn't hear or comprehend anything. He asked me why did i disobey His order and out right tell Him "NO i wasn't going to do it" with and attitude. He hit me again. And everything was fuzzy. But i still kept my gaze on Him. He was saying something else but i couldn't make it out After a couple of more hit, He held my face and asked me if i were okay. I said yes. He said then Why are you shaking. i couldn't answer that.

I guess he forgot hitting me in my face was a limit but i was so out of it i couldn't stop Him. I think i was scared but wasn't sure. I kept shaking so He pulled me close and i think i started to pull away. He held me close and said "I may be an asshole during play but i will take care of you when were done". And he did. He kissed my face then me.

I got fingered a little more then He told me to take my panties off. I did and He told me to spread my legs. He put them in me and it hurt so bad. I have to keep them in until I'm ready to go to bed. He kissed me and sent me on my way.

I got home and He asked me how it felt and I told Him it hurt really bad and i was cramping so He let me take them out.

Gosh as im sitting here writing im thinking about Him so much. I want to be with Him now. Feel his hand on me. I miss him. :/ Well i guess ill go and write this paper i thats due tomorrow. Sir expects me to have it done by tonight and i have to send it to Him. After today i dont ever want to have a punishment like that....lol or maybe i do.

~Hispreciousslave~  

Punishment out the Gate

Well tomorrow i get to see Sir and i really don't want to. I'm getting a spanking right out the gate. Yes i have forgotten to send Him pictures that He requested for and because of that i'm getting a spanking.....not with His hand....with His belt. i'm a little scared now. Its not going to be easy..i have to endure 50 hits. i am really scared. i know it will really hurt but he said that after i will learn then He's going to fuck the shit out of me.

That being said i cant wait. i'll give you and update tomorrow..if i can sit down and do it.

1 week

i am really excited. I have to wait just one more week to see Sir and i am really happy. He makes me feel so alive. Every time W/we talk on the phone or text or anything that involves Him i get tingles all over my body; especially that one sacred place that is His. *blushing* 

i couldn't hold it in i had to write it down and shout it to the world. lol